Flux

My life is in flux. I am leaving in a few days for Vancouver to visit my daughter for a week and then to Australia to visit my mom. The Vancouver trip has been planned forever. Don is coming too as his daughter lives there as well. Just to Vancouver. 

Life happens and plans change. My stepdad passed away very unexpectedly last month in Australia. And less than a month later my mom was diagnosed with cancer. My visit is way more than a visit. It's me and mom. I arrive as she comes home from the hospital. We will work together to bring health and happiness back into life. 

At first everything felt so hard to do and sad. Then light shines again. Feelings change to anticipation of adventure. Healing. Movement. Joy. There is no room to brood. No time for extraneous things. Lots to do before I go as I don't know when I will be back. Two months? Three months? It seems strange to be so open to the universe. Not knowing what comes next is both freeing and scary. And every breath feels fresh and clean. The contrast between staying stuck in thinking about calamity and the open space of a still mind is huge. When I see it - it's easy to choose. I remember to choose peace. I remember to choose peace. When I remember.